Dec 17

Tonight, I preached the last sermon in a series about sex, relationships, and love. Throughout the series, there are many different adjectives that I could use to describe the reaction of the students, such as awkward, withdrawn, surprised, engaged, amazing, etc. I am so thankful that I am their youth pastor.

However, one of my greatest concerns for them is that they must navigate through the slew of sexual confusion that characterizes the teenage years. On one hand, the World shoves sex in their faces (not that hormones help). On the other, the Church refuses to discuss it or vilifies it if it does discuss it. I want them to understand that God created sex. And like all of God’s creation, it was very good. But, also like all of God’s creation, it has been perverted to become useful for sinful purposes and therefore needs to be approached with respect, understanding, and commitment to the will of God.

I think my kids get that. And for their sake in a world of constant temptation, I really pray and hope so. My prayer for them is that God will guard their hearts and help them to trust in His unfailing faithfulness and provision for their lives, and to understand that, often, that loving provision manifests as a present restriction that results in a future freedom.

sray

Jun 18

As I was having my quiet time this morning, I was reflecting on Wednesday Night Live, the youth group service here at Westbury.  I wrote a great message.  I felt as though I communicated it effectively.  And yet, no excitement.  Often, I feel so powerless when it comes to attempting to pull teenagers away from the allure of the world and attract them to the things of the Kingdom. 

This is an issue in the Church, mind you - not just among teenagers.  And I think the problem is this:  we give God some dinky portion of our devotion and passion and yet somehow expect to reap %100 of his presence and blessing.  Of course, we don’t.  And then - BAM! - there’s the World knocking at our door like a used car salesman presenting an irrefusable offer! 

Sex!  Popularity!  Wealth!  Rank!  Party!  Fun!  Get it now!  Now!  Now!  - and only for the low, low cost of…your soul.

And we, like a child making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by a holiday at the sea (CS Lewis), fall for it hook, line, and sinker. 

In summation.  We give God almost nothing, expecting everything.  Then, getting nothing, the lusts of our eyes (to which Satan has appealed) steal our allegiance.  And suddenly, we are God’s worst nightmare - religious.

SRay

Jun 16

Well, I’ve been a youth minister (officially) now for a week.  It’s been wonderful so far.  The people at Westbury are amazing.  The kids have limitless potential (like all kids).  And I have a freaking assistant!  Things couldn’t be better.

Earlier this week, Pastor Jeff preached on a text that is near and dear to my heart, II Corinthians 12:7-10.  The text is so deeply important to me because I feel as though I can relate to Paul so well concerning his thorn.  Indeed, there have been things in my life (and still are) that I wish God would remove - and yet, there it remains.  God pretty much says “no”. 

But there were some new truths in my reflection on Jeff’s message.  Isn’t it funny how you can have known a scripture for years and yet, all of a sudden, something pops out that you didn’t get before?  Well, a few things popped out for me…the kind of things where grasping onto these truths tightly will really change my walk with Jesus forever.  And they are these:

1.) In II Corinthians 12:7, Paul talks about how it was because of  some “surpassingly great revelations” he had received that he gets this thorn (something bad, but we’re not told what exactly the ”thorn” is).  Get that?!  A-something good happens; B-Paul gets a thorn.  Wow!  No reward, no candy, no DVD player, no gift-certificate, no prize - but a stinkin’ thorn!  Our culture is used to rewarding good things and punishing bad things - and rightly so.  But one of the misleading things about this kind of thinking is this: when bad things happen to us, we often incorrectly assume that we’ve done something bad to deserve it.  Even folks in the Bible thought this (John 9:2).  But sometimes, things that we see as bad - like Paul’s thorn - may not have come because we did something to earn it.  Sometimes, there is a much higher purpose.  Sometimes, bad things come because - just like Paul - you did something well. 

2.) In verse 9, Jesus, refusing to remove whatever this “thorn” is, says, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Wow!  God, a loving, good, wonderfully compassionate Father WON’T remove the thorn!  But his reasoning is absolutely justified.  To God, few things are more important in our relationship with Him than obedience.  And in this case, the obedience comes by way of dependence.  “My power is made perfect in weakness”.  It’s not that He enjoys seeing us suffer.  It’s not that He likes for our circumstances to suck.  It’s not that He wants us to be unhappy.  But if God is ever faced with a choice between our happiness and our obedience, He will ALWAYS go with obedience and consequently engineer our circumstances accordingly, even if He has to bring you into a situation that forces you to depend on Him for sustenance, much like Paul here.  Question: why is God so intent on our obedience?  Well, any parent could answer this one.  Plain and simple - God knows what is best for us…even more than we do.  And if He has to subject us to a painful reality that results in a beautiful obedience.  That, to Him, would be far better than a beautiful disobedience that leads to a painful reality - perhaps even a painful eternity.

3.) The final new Truth that I learned from this passage of scripture came from verse 10, where Paul resolves to remain content in his weakness.  I’ve always thought that this passage was basically a call to be fake - smiling through tears pretty much.  Being the emotionally impulsive person I am, I tend not to handle difficult situations well.  If something is going wrong in my life and I ask God for help with it, and he says, “no”, I generally don’t respond well.  Either I complain to anyone who will listen until I have enough people feeling sorry for me enough to somehow make me feel better; or I do something else (generally, sinful) to temporarily escape the pain of the situation.  Neither of these approaches is acceptable, for they both loophole the very obedience that God is trying to bring about.  The only option, then, is joyful contentment.  The thing about having joy is that it truly is a choice - not a feeling.  Joy is not something that you feel like doing.  It’s like yardwork - you do it because it needs to be done.  Stinks - but it’s true.  If you need a motivator, be like Paul.  He focused on the knowlegde that, though his circumstances might not be the most uplifting, his dependence-causing weakness results in God being strong.  Indeed, Paul is out of his own way - banished from being his own god.  Now, it’s totally the God show - God is doing his thing, changing Paul, making things even better.  And - just like yardwork - when it is all said and done, you look at what you’ve done.  Though it was long, sweaty, hot, and tedious, you’re happy you did it.  You feel relieved.  Refreshed.  Accomplished.  And you realize that you developed your character along the way.  Indeed, you’ve become a better person after all. 

A God who leaves thorns in the flesh?…sounds like my kinda God…

SRay

May 1

In this portion of John’s revelation, Jesus has commanded John to put to paper His dictation, addressed specifically to seven churches in Asia Minor, the easternmost portion of the Roman Empire, and an area where Paul highly focused his missionary efforts (today, Asia Minor is mostly comprised of Turkey). Laodicea, a particularly wealthy and self-sufficient city, was the destination of the last of these letters.

And so Jesus begins, “The words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of God’s creation.” To 21st century, Western-thinking folks, these titles might seem a bit inflated, if not just outright confusing. However, to the church in Laodicea, they would make perfect sense. Acts tells us that there were a significant number of Jews who called this area home (Acts 13,14). The “Amen” is a Hebrew term of confirmation (Jeremiah 11:5; 28:6); even today, we use “amen” as a term of confirmation after a prayer or theological assertion, so as to establish a connotation of “so be it” or “that’s right” (heck, sometimes the assertion doesn’t even have to be theological in nature; i.e. Guy #1: “Dude, he needs to mind his own business!”. Guy # : “Amen!”). The second title, “faithful and true witness” is just a more conspicuous assertion of the first title. In other words, it suggests an assurance of the validity of what is said. The third title, “beginning of God’s creation”, is a bit more tricky. Some have, in the past, taken this to mean that Christ is a created being who was simply created before everything else. However, solid exegesis and word study shows this position to be both false and heretical. In fact, Jesus has always existed with God and is himself the agent of creation (John 1:1-3). Thus, the titles here with which Jesus begins His exhortation are basically His way of saying, “Look. This is the Lord talking. This stuff that I’m about to say…it’s right from the horse’s mouth; you can take it to the bank.” Perhaps Jesus chose to introduce His exhortation in this way so as to distinguish it from John’s exhortation, leaving its hearers less apt to dismiss it or take it lightly on the basis of its being “written by humans”. Funny - we still have this exact same issue with inspiration today.

Jesus begins His exhortation, “I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.” Jesus wants the Laodiceans to know that He is not only aware of their works, but that He is displeased with them. Now, this is the part where the preacher asserts his metaphorical interpretation of this passage to the congregation (I admit, I’ve done this); it generally goes something like this: “Jesus is being metaphorical in His usage of hot and cold. Hot represents being spiritually alive or “on fire” for Jesus. And cold represents being spiritually dead or, still worse, an unbeliever. Thus, being lukewarm represents straddling the fence between the Kingdom and the World - and Jesus says this is worse than either one.” Well, despite the massive temptation to arrive at this conclusion (it is really fun, isn’t it?), Jesus probably has different things in mind. In order to understand Jesus’s metaphorical rendering here, you need to know some things about Laodicea. Despite Laodicea’s self-sufficiency and bolstering city pride, it is a well-documented fact that the city did not have access to a satisfactory source of water. It didn’t have access to cold water that ran down from mountains, nor did it have hot water generated in hot springs (like nearby Hierapolis). In fact, it’s own source of water was heavy with sediment. So, in order to get healthy drinking water, it had to pipe it in from surrounding cities (yes, they had pipes). And by the time this water actually reached Laodicea, it was lukewarm. This meant extra work either heating up the water via a small fire or cooling it down by placing a bucket of it in the shade. It was this constant drudgery about which the Laodiceans consistently complained. And it is this exact geographical feature that Jesus is exploiting in His metaphor. Hot water is good for something (bathing, cleaning, some drinks). Cold water is good for something (drinks, refreshment). But lukewarm water is absolutely useless. Thus, in effect, Jesus is saying here: “You Laodiceans are just as useless as the lukewarm water you’re always complaining about!”. Concerning the “I will spit you out of my mouth” part, I don’t quite think that Jesus is threatening their salvation (this is, after all, directed toward a church, not just one person). Rather, I think He is basically asserting that He would just as well have no church at all than have one that is useless in His name.

Jesus continues, “For you say, I am rich, I have prospered, and I need nothing, not realizing that you are wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked. I counsel you to buy from me gold refined by fire, so that you may be rich, and white garments so that you may clothe yourself and the shame of your nakedness may not be seen, and salve to anoint your eyes, so that you may see.” Jesus asserts here that the apparent source of the Laodiceans’ uselessness is their collective dependence on worldly security. Laodicea was very abundant in natural resources, resulting in a city that was not just stable economically, but prosperous. The city functioned as a wealthy banking center. It hosted gladiator games. It boasted a theater. There was no shortage of civic pride. Thus, it seems that the Christians in Laodicea were useless in that they were just like their surroundings…prideful, self-sufficient, and therefore unable to realize their need for Christ. Thus Christ characterizes them as “wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked.” As a remedy, therefore, Christ counsels the church to buy from Him “gold, refined by fire”. “Gold” symbolizes many things in the Bible, but when used in the context of being refined, it generally refers to faith that is being tested (Malachi 3:3; I Peter 1:7), often by a difficult circumstance. Perhaps the difficult circumstance here is sacrifice. His second remedy is “white garments” which will cover the shame of their nakedness. To be naked in the ancient world (especially among the Jews) was a very shameful thing. Nakedness is often used in the Bible as a metaphor for the exposure of evil or sin. The comedy in Jesus’s offer of “white garments” is that Laodicea was famous for its textile production, mainly clothes derived from black wool. This metaphor is clearly intentionally ironic, as is His final offer, that of eye salve. Laodicea was home to a medical school, a famous 1st-century eye doctor, and likely Phrygian powder, a substance used to manufacture eye salve. The contrast here, however, is that despite these wonderful optometric resources, the church is still blind and in need of the anointed healing that only Jesus’s eye salve can provide.

Jesus then cautions, “Those whom I love, I reprove and discipline, so be zealous and repent.” Lest the Laodiceans be misinformed, Jesus asserts that his seemingly harsh demand for their sacrificial obedience is not for kicks and giggles. Rather, He does this in order to discipline them. He does it because He loves them, not the opposite. In fact, to put it like one of my high school football coaches, “it’s when I stop being so hard on you that you need to be worried”.

Jesus continues, “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with Me. The one who conquers, I will grant him to sit with me on my throne, as I also conquered and sat down with my Father on His throne.” Jesus employs a familiar ancient image here, a meal in fellowship. It is perhaps one of the most intimate things in antiquity that platonic friends can do. And it is this very intimacy that stands at the doorstep of the Laodicean’s lives. All they have to do is answer. If the meal, then, stands as the image for intimate faith, then the image of conquering must represent steadfast obedience, for Jesus’s relates it to His own experience in conquering death and sin through obeying the will of the Father. Notice here that this is one of the few places where Jesus “sits” with the Father. Most of the time, he’s standing. Sitting is the position one takes when his work is finished. Thus it was finished when Jesus conquered, and so it is for those of us who conquer through Him. This particular passage has been used by some, however, to assert that, because this passage speaks of humans co-reigning with Christ, humans can achieve the status of godhood. This interpretation is nothing short of retarded and ignores ALL other biblical scripture that presents clear evidence to the contrary.

Jesus concludes, “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.” In other words, though these words might have penned for a particular place and time, EVERYONE can benefit from understanding and applying their message.

So, speaking of application, how can we apply these timeless truths into our lives today? Alright, here come your four points (boy, am I Baptist or what?)…

1.) Our actions, individually and collectively as a Church, WILL represent our Father no matter what. The question of whether they do so accurately or not might well be another matter, but they do represent Him. It is this very disease of being useless as a church that has all but rendered Christians absolutely voiceless when it comes to addressing the important matters of our world. The Church has forgotten her purpose: to serve as the loving, transformed community of believers through whom God redeems the world. But, currently, the Church is way too concerned with others things to fool around with telling folks about Jesus. If we do actually tell folks about Jesus (outside of the much louder message we send with our actions), we often do so in such a condescending manner so as to alienate those to whom we “present the Gospel”. Still more criminal, we expect that people buy into the change that Christ can bring into their lives when there has been no change in our own. We need to learn what it really means to be Christians (little Christs) and live lives that truly reflect the heart and passions of our savior.

2.) The American church and the Laodicean church have so much in common. So much! The prosperity. The self-sufficiency. The arrogance. We’ve bought into these “securities” hook, line, and sinker and have somehow forgotten the much more important issue of God. Let’s be honest. We don’t depend on Him. We run church like a business. We make decisions based on worldly principles or our own selfish desires, throw an “I love Jesus” t-shirt on them, and let them run wild. Like the Laodiceans, we’re just like the filth that surrounds us. Maybe worse - at least unbelievers live up to what God expects of them. We live down to that same standard…and somehow think that we’ll change the world. It’s funny. History has always shown us that it is under persecution that Christianity flourishes. Is it any wonder? It shouldn’t be. For it is under persecution that we truly realize the worthlessness of wealth juxtaposed with the eternal riches found in faith in Jesus, obedience to the will of God, and dependence on Him. Isn’t it interesting that most of us consider the prosperity of America a blessing?

3.) I hate to bad-mouth prosperity or health/wealth theology (not really), but let me just say this: when did our culture become so dang wussy regarding the difficulty in living as a Christian? It seems like Christians are always looking for the easy way out - avoiding the very process of refining through which God tries to take us. Don’t get me wrong; there is nothing wrong with affirming that God is loving. It’s just that our concept of love is so dang inadequate. Discipline IS part of God’s love. Dare I say it…GOD LETS “BAD” THINGS HAPPEN TO HIS CHILDREN ON PURPOSE. And why? Because, to God, developing us to be more like Christ in our character, compassion, and love for God and others far outweighs God’s desire to protect us from what we’ve gotten ourselves into through our sin.

4.) Jesus stands at the door, desiring intimacy with ALL of His children. And yet, we settle for going to church a couple of days a week and begrudgingly dragging ourselves into the presence of God through prayer. How sad that God offers this whole world…no, this whole universe of intimacy and understanding, and we settle for a closet.

In Christ

SRay

P.S. I used the NIV Application Commentary on Revelation for all the historical and theological background for this sermon.

Disclaimer: I realize this sermon has a lot of generalizations in it. That is mostly because it is addressed toward a Body, and not an individual. If you feel that you are an exception to most of its exhortation, then you should probably start at the top and read it all over again.

Mar 14

Those who know me well know that I have two great passions in life: music and youth ministry.  Even in high school, my friends knew well that, at any moment, I could be found doing one of two things: either I was somewhere annoying the heck out of someone by playing piano or singing or I was surrounded by a small entourage of teens a few years younger than me.  Nevertheless, the long process of making academic and vocational decisions that correspond to these passions has been a constant source of confusion and difficulty every moment since I became a student at Ouachita.  On the one hand, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I love pouring into the lives of teenagers through discipleship and teaching more than anything else.  On the other hand, God has gifted me in the area of voice in such a way that not developing this gift would seem criminal and like a waste of great potential.  In fact, my six year career at Ouachita (now a part of Ouachita folklore and the source of constant ridicule with my friends) is a direct result of this struggle for dominance between the two passions that apparently battled within me, seeing as I changed my major five times.  But there was a point during the Ouachitonian years that I finally arrived at a choice.

In February of 2006, I won the Mid-South Region of the Metropolitan Opera National Council Auditions to advance to the National Semifinal round in New York.  All of this happened amidst perhaps the most difficult time in my life in trying to understand the calling that God has placed on me.  In the district and regional rounds, the singers are each allowed a short interview with the judges following the competition so that they can discuss issues related to their performance, voice, and ways in which they can improve.  I can remember so clearly even now having won first place, giving interviews, celebrating with family and friends, and lastly, standing in line for the interviews, along with my voice instructor and diction coach, Drs. Jon and Glenda Secrest, respectively.  As I stood there, rather than being filled with excitement, I was filled with fear and sadness because I knew that this new opportunity would make it so much more difficult to justify the choice of becoming a youth pastor (biblical studies was my major at the time).  And as I stood there, a black woman, whom I later realized was the wife of OperaMemphis’s staff otolaryngologist, came up to me; she had wished me luck before the competition, sort of in passing.  I figured she was just coming up to offer congratulations.  But then, these words proceeded from her mouth: “Stephen, I want you to know that my family and I are praying for you, and that it is okay to see where this goes”.  I was floored.  And she walked away.  I’ve never spoken to or seen her since.  But her words were exactly what I needed to hear at the time.  In fact, I believe that they were God-ordained.  When I got back to Ouachita the next week, I changed my major to voice once and for all, having concluded that God’s will for me (vocationally) was to be an opera singer.

And that is the degree with which I graduated: a Bachelor of Arts in music with a minor in Christian studies.  But even though I was a voice major, I still found time for youth ministry.  I got involved in Ouachita’s BigBrother/BigSister program, and I began working at Park Hill Baptist Church in Arkadelphia as a college volunteer, eventually became a student intern, and finally, became interim youth pastor, pending the selection of a permanent youth pastor.  I had not even considered submitting my resume for the position, even though I knew I would be graduating college at just the right time.  I had already completed the Met auditions again (this time, I made it to the finals) as well as auditions for graduate school.  I was determined to continue with the divine advice of the woman I met in Memphis.  I was determined to “see where this goes”.

Then, this: in January 2009, I was a speaker and small group leader for a youth conference (to which I had been invited almost a year prior by a dear friend, Michael Rodriguez) in Alabama called The Journey.  It was like old times at Park Hill.  I got to pour into the lives of some awesome high school guys and speak to a wonderful group of students.  In fact, the experience was perhaps even more spiritually refreshing for me than some of the students.  God did some great work in me there.  When I came back to Houston, I could not shake the sense over the next several weeks that something was missing from my life.  I began to recognize that those old feelings of frustration and difficulty regarding my life’s calling had indeed resurfaced.  As I prayed and continued to seek God’s will with this issue, he began to speak to me through certain people and certain experiences.  I recall one instance in particular in a voice lesson with Dr. King.  Somehow, we got on the subject of calling.  He had a shared a story about a very talented former student of his who chose to go into full time ministry rather than a career in opera.  As we ended our discussion, he spoke a phrase that I will never forget: “The way you know whether or not you’re supposed to do something has nothing to do with how good are you are at it.  It’s about whether or not you can live without it, especially in opera.”

Honestly, friends, I love music.  I love it more than many things.  It speaks to me.  God speaks to me through it.  I love to perform.  I love to impact the lives of others through music.  I even love the opportunities that God has afforded me through my talent, such as singing at the Met, getting a full ride at a prestigious university like Rice, and getting opportunities to talk about Jesus with my music colleagues (sometimes it’s a discussion - sometimes it’s a devotion - sometimes it’s debate).  In fact, it is this latter love that I believe is the purpose of God bringing me to this place: ministry outside of a church.  Maybe this is where it was “supposed to have gone”.  Maybe there’s more.

I love all these things.  But when it comes down to it, I could live without the music career.  But I simply cannot live without youth ministry.  I believe with all my heart that it is the purpose for which I was created (among other things) and the passion to which I should devote my life vocationally.

This past week, in accordance with this realization, I informed my voice instructor that I would not be attending Aspen Musical Festival, a summer young artist program where he teaches and where I was offered a major role and fellowship.  Rather, I will be staying here in Houston, where I will continue to help out with the youth group at Westbury Baptist Church and begin exploring opportunities for full time youth ministry for when I finish my Master’s degree.

Many look at this decision as nothing more than the latest in a perpetual series of vocation switches.  Others think it so foolish to give up on what could undoubtedly be a great career in opera.  Still others wonder what the heck has taken me so long to get here (to youth ministry).  And few are somewhere between these varied opinions.  In fact, despite how sure I am about this decision, I am still going through these same second guessings myself.  Am I only making this decision because I’m burned out on opera?  With my voice, couldn’t I be way more successful monetarily in opera than in ministry?  Can’t opera be a ministry anyway?

I hear them all.  I understand them all.  And I’ve weighed them all.  Who knows?  I could be wrong…again.  Time will tell.  But through this process, I’ve learned a few things about this wilderness.

1.) Choosing one thing doesn’t necessarily mean forsaking the other.  I will still be able to perform as God affords me opportunities to do so that don’t conflict with whatever ministry in which I am involved.  It’s not always about a choice - sometimes, it’s just about determining proportion.

2.) I know that my vocation matters to God.  But I also know that what matters to Him even more is my continual pursuit of His Kingdom and His Righteousness.  That way, whatever I do, He will use me to edify and build up His Church.

Friends, I implore your prayers and encouragement through this time of uncertainty.  And, should anyone out there be dealing with something similar, I leave you with these words from Isaiah:

Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them.  Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”  Isaiah 30:20-21

SRay

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